Ode To Seritonin.

Yesterday was terrible. Hard. Lucky Martha did the 12-4 shift for me, so I only had to work my evening shift.

Meeting up with Stu at 4, for lunch and general cheer ups.

Also become addicted to Kingdom of Loathing. It's funny and takes my mind of things.

Not Gonna Write You A Love Song.

So, I figured why let some of the photographs I took go to waste?

I also had a massive urge to blog. I'm unsure why, I just did. I'm not even sure what I'm going to write about.

I had a very lazy day today, however, I have a very busy day tomorrow. Covering Boo's 12-4 shift in the afternoon, and then I have my own 6-11:30 shift that night. Also gotta run to the post office to post cards and letters :) (Yes, I told you I did some of the things from my list!)

And I feel like I made up for not doing some of them by doing something I've been putting off for a while now due to my being a female - I set up my freeview box. I know it doesn't sound so hard, but in fact it had stumped me several times! But, task completed, and working! So, since I feel I shall have another sleepless night, I plan to sit on my bed, in front of the TV, all night, and just watch crap all.night.long.

I swear, I'm going to try so hard with this journal. I actually enjoy writing in this one, rather than with others it felt like I had to. I'm completely unsure why.

I would, however, like some more friends on here, so should anyone have any amazing people they want to recommend me to, please, feel free to :)

See; I told you I was going to try optimism this week, despite last week being terrible, and I am. I hope it's working, and I also hope that the amount of actual work I am doing (at the pub, not for Fearless) will keep me busy and keep my mind out of the gutter.

For someone who had no idea what to write, I sure as hell wrote a lot!

I Don't Mean To Be A Bother, But Have You Seen This Girl?

Unfortunately, I failed hard on my list. However, last week was one of the most traumatic I've had in a long time. I really do not feel like going into it, but please believe me when I say I believe I have more than enough good excuses as to why I didn't do the list. I did do many things off it though, such as the cards and letters, which I just need to send off, as well as taking some photographs and also hoovering my flat.
Maybe when my life calms down a bit more, then I shall give it another shot.

I'm trying to be optimistic about the coming week. It's kind of hard, considering last week, but thinking about it, it cannot really get much worse. Right? *Touch wood*

I shall also try and update this more. What with Sam back in Lincoln and me still stuck in Blackpool, I have a lot more time on my hands. Time leads to thinking. Thinking sometimes leads to blogging. It (sort of) makes sense!

I Can Tell You, My Love For You Will Still Be Strong

So I didn't update yesterday, which sort of ruins my '7 things 7 days' thing, however, I had a very good reason to. Yesterday was a terrible day for me. My mood was rock bottom, and then I found out my Mums cat, Charlie, who I love dearly despite all the 'He's evil!' claims, is incredibly ill, and if he doesn't start eating soon, we will have to say goodbye to him. It is heartbreaking. I cannot bear to think of it.

So, I shall begin the 7 days today.

No real plans today; might wander into town to see how Yates' is doing after the fire.
The photo up top was taken yesterday. I'll post any photo I take today up tomorrow and so on and so forth.

Update;
1. Write letters to 2 friends and mail them (0/2)
2. Make a card for 1 friend and mail it (0/1)
3. Make a birthday card for my mother
4. Catch up on all Fearless teaming for this week
5. Begin every blogspot journal entry with a photograph I have taken that day (1/7)
6. Update this journal every day for 7 days (1/7)
7. Hoover my flat

Alone At Last, Together In A Photograph

Inspired by Clares list of 101 things to do in 1001 days, I'm making a list too. But not 101 things, or 1001 days. I'm terrible with long term targets and tasks like that. Mine's going to be simple. 7 things in 7 days.

1. Write letters to 2 friends and mail them (0/2)
2. Make a card for 1 friend and mail it (0/1)
3. Make a birthday card for my mother
4. Catch up on all Fearless teaming for this week
5. Begin every blogspot journal entry with a photograph I have taken that day (0/7)
6. Update this journal every day for 7 days (0/7)
7. Hoover my flat

Since one of these 'tasks' is write in this journal every day, I hope I will actually be updating every day. Therefore, I'll update on the list. The beginning all the updates with a photograph I have taken that day is to try and get me back into using my camera as often as I used to.

Last week, I made cards for five friends and sent them, and it felt good. Very good, for some reason. So hopefully the sending of cards and letters to my friends will help the feel good feeling come back.

I will be beginning the tasks tomorrow (18th February) and have until Wednesday 25th February to finish them :)

Swing life away.

I absolutely adore this song. I agree with so many of the lyrics. Especially '...We get by just fine here on minimum wage. If love is a labour, I'll slave till the end...'

Am I loud and clear or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave 'til the end
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long; think that its time to move
The winter's so cold summer's over too soon
so let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave 'til the end
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand, until you hold my hand

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave 'til the end
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away
Swing life away

But I'm Slipping In Between You And Your Big Dreams

I did this one facebook, but I wanted to post it here too. I'm unsure why.

1. My Zebra print faux-fur throw is the best throw ever. True story.

2. I'll soon be legally changing my surname to Caddick. It's my mothers maiden name.

3. I've already done one of these, but people keep tagging me, so I thought I'd do a new one. Plus, there is more to me than just 25 things.

4. I think 'Konstantine' by Something Corporate is an absolutely beautiful song. I can listen to it for hours.

5. You know, I'm still not 100% sure what I want to be when I grow up. Apparently, I'm already a grown up.

6. Cassie was my favourite character in the first series of Skins. Chris in the second series. And I still haven't decided on the third series.

7. There's a spot on my nose and it's annoying me.

8. I should learn not to make plans - 99% of the time they fall through, people bail or go tits up. Fact.

9. I have been evacuated out of Miami due to a hurricane. We then flew over said hurricane in the airplane on the way home. It was a beautiful and amazing sight that I will hold dear to me.

10. If my parents hadn't divorced, I would be living in Florida.

11. I'm hungry.

12. I can just lie on my bed and listen to music. Nothing more, just listen. And I enjoy those days.

13. I'm becoming more sure of myself with every day that passes. I'm still incredibly insecure though.

14. My hair smells like coconut.

15. I have a pink phone, because I like the colour pink. A lot.

16. I have a new found love for Sailor Jerrys, or Morgans Spiced.

17. It's always around this point that I start to run out of things to write about myself. This does not make me a boring person. It just means I need to learn more about myself.

18. I feel every house or flat should have a traffic cone.

19. I hate the cold. Unless it's snowing. Then it has a very good reason to be cold.

20. Sugarcult are still my number one band, and probably always will be.

21. I'm nowhere near as innocent as I seem to be.

22. I like pillows and cushions and other cosy stuff a lot.

23. I actually love my natural hair colour, but I always get bored of my hair. Always. I can't help it. That's why I dye my hair a lot and cut it.

24. When I'm alone and bored, my mind wanders. Never to good places.

25. My favourite fruit is banana. And whenever I type banana I wan to continue, so it looks like banananana.

I Wanna See You In The Light Of Day

I'm soon to be Kimberley-Jayne Caddick.

So Take A Look At Yourself In The Mirror.

I don't think Sams parents like me.

They're always on at him for coming to see me so much, and telling him to do more work. They think I'm taking him away from them and taking him away from Uni. But they have no idea.

They have no idea about the argument I had with him about him skipping classes, and how he now goes to every single one, including lectures. How I make him do his uni work.

No. I'm the new girlfriend, they feel they have to blame someone.


And it's really getting to me. Really.